Went through to Glasgow today, trying to go through our 4th IUI treatment. Had a scan as normal and the nurse (a different one again, you get used to it though!) looks through the notes and says ” hmm do you usually get cysts” OMG, eh WHAT! James and I were so shocked, my heart started racing. She checked the other ovary then went back and sure enough a great big black shadow was on the screen. It looked just like its meant to when we’re looking for the correct sized follicles but a bit bigger. James held my hand tightly. I didn’t no what to say.

The nurse I think seen the shock on our faces and assured us, that this is quite normal and that some women get them often, others not so often, but of course most people would no nothing about it, they usually go away on there own. But unfortunately it meant cancelling this treatment at the first hurdle. To be honest, i’m quite glad. I want a baby with James so much, but i’m exhausted with the treatment just now, not really the drugs, more the travelling back and forth, early in the morning or after work or even taking time off work. Maybe a break will do us good. Fingers crossed for next time.

Third time wasn’t lucky after all. Negative test AGAIN. It’s so difficult to remain positive. At least James and I discuss everything, when we’re feeling up and down. xx That helps loads xx

Went through for the insemination yesterday. We had to get dressed up in gowns and clogs! Hair net too, I looked like a surgeon! I went into the theatre with Annie and sat next to the bed. It’s hard to watch as you can see it is uncomfortable for her. All I could do was hold her hand and try not too make her laugh too much (in case she needed the toilet). Hopefully soon we’ll be in a similar situation having our baby!! We left with a sample bottle and instructions for Annie to fill it in 2 weeks time and bring it back in to see if we have been successful. – It sounds like we are waiting to hear about a job interview!!

Can’t believe its June already, trying IUI again, been to Glasgow had the ultrasound scan. All great, 2 good sized follicles which is what we were hoping for. Had the timed HCG injection. (That one is so sore!!!, not at all like the Gonal-F injections) Going in tomorrow for IUI, hopefully its third time lucky. Our consultant is on holiday, so its another Dr. doing the insemination, but i’m sure it’ll be fine. Fingers crossed.

Feeling down today, even though its only our second time. You feel really dissapointed that it didn’t work, we didn’t even get passed the second stage this time. I think the nurses are re-thinking my fertility drugs. Probably stick with the Gonal-F injections and stop taking the Clomid. My body must be funtioning fairly well on its own so the drugs made me over respond this time. At least the fertility drugs will be less expensive next time, i suppose thats a good thing.

We went through to Glasgow today, after Annie had the jabs (gonal f) and took the tablets (clomid) this week. Unfortunately during the scan the nurse could tell too many of Annies follicles had grown too big and so we can’t continue with this months cycle. So disappointed. Feel gutted but trying to stay positive, all we can do is wait till next month.

I’ve been giving Annie her fertility injections. It’s a little wierd at first, checking the dosage is right and being confident, making sure I don’t move the needle about too much. It got easier though, we had three to do in the week and now it’s back through to Glasgow for the next stage.

Back to the hospital again, had another ultrasound to check everything fine, so now can go ahead and take fertility drugs (Clomid and gonal F injections) to encourage follicle growth. Injections are not too sore, so still excited about trying again.

Negative pregnancy test We’re both a bit disappointed, but it was only the first attempt. Try again next month. Nurses keep telling me how young and healthy I am, so fingers crossed it works next time.

First IUI day!! Very exciting. Trying not to get too excited as I know its unusual to work first time. But miracles do happen. I had to drink water as IUI is to be performed on a comfortably full bladder. OMG, the consultant was running late so, I needed to pee so much, it didn’t help that both James and I had to get into very fetching gowns and some shoes like crocs, very trendy! I think I was trying not to laugh at the fact James seemed to enjoy the fact he looked like a surgeon in his scrubs!! Our consultant is crazy, a nice man, makes us laugh. (not good when you need the loo.) The procedure went fine, but I found it quite sore, (not like the Hystogram dye test they did on me to check my tubes were clear, that was agony, I was told it would be like a bad period pain, I have NEVER experienced a period pain like that, it was awful!) probably as I’d drunk too much water. I’ve taken today off, so I’ll just chill and hope for the best.